24 X 48 INCHES

“Some people come into your life and go quickly. Others move your soul to dance. They awaken us to new understanding with the passing whisper of their wisdom and make the sky more beautiful to gaze upon. Some people come into your life, leave footprints on your heart and you are never ever the same.” I was reminded of this quote because I am currently struggling with trying not to miss “this type of someone” as much as I am. You do it all right. You were patient. You let go of the pressure. You put forth to the universe that you were ready and you were finally, I mean finally, rewarded with meeting someone that changes everything, only to then have it momentarily taken away for a longer period of time in which you can barley even contemplate handling. I’m talking about that aching desire to be in someone’s presence, knowing that it can’t and won’t happen again until some time from now. I find myself in this predicament currently as I wait for someone to return home. My reality is that I lay awake at night anxious to fall asleep knowing that the time will pass faster when my eyes are closed. I find myself pouring all of my energy into my art to stay preoccupied only to be interrupted with frequent moments of remembering that there are still months apart ahead of me. As I painted “YOUSSMI” 24×48, I questioned how to find the positive in my current yearning and separation. In that contemplation I rediscovered the beauty and importance of being comfortable in your own presence and being alone. Far too often do we rely and depend on something or someone else to fill a void or insecurity. Too often do we frivolously fill our day to pass the time until we get to be with that certain person again. As a result, we completely forget that the present moment is passing us by without even the slightest of acknowledgement. Remember that you only get a certain amount of sunrises so don’t be in such a hurry to see the sun set yet again. Revel in the fact that you actually have someone in your life that you get to miss wholeheartedly and who will eventually returning home knowing that others aren’t as fortunate. Then and only then, will you be in the right place to healthily offer yourself to that person “that leaves footprints on your heart and leaves you never ever the same.” My heart still aches for their return, but I am eager to enjoy the time while I wait.