36 X 36 INCHES
“Every man knows well enough that he is a unique being, only once on this earth; and by no extraordinary chance will such a marvelously picturesque piece of diversity in unity as he is, ever be put together a second time.” Despite clearly knowing and believing in this, why do I continue to forget and often find myself pretending to be somebody I am not? I recently became aware that I was doing just this. It was a moment where I was both overwhelmingly overcome by a sense of relief because I knew I had been right all along combined with a raging disappointment in myself for not having listened to my gut in the first place. I realized I had been making excuses for the other person, was fearful of judgement, and was looking for myself and asking everyone except myself questions which I, and only I, could answer. As soon as I was aware of what I had been doing and vowed not to care what this particular person thought of me, the relationship manifested into something of substance and ease with a sense of true equality. Void of caring about judgment, I was able to offer so much more to the conversation, to the energy and most importantly, to myself. I gave myself the gift of remembering all the incredible qualities that I have and can offer in any relationship. I was able to realize that it “takes courage to grow up and become who you really are” and as a result was one of my proudest moments. EKIM 36×36 is an older piece that I had never truly been completely happy with. It had a variety of brilliant parts, but deep down I always had this nagging feeling that something wasn’t right. As I came back to this piece while I worked through my feelings of “being nobody but yourself.” a balance of colour, composition and tone effortlessly came together on canvas. Creating something as unique as it’s creator only confirmed that I owe it to the world and to myself to “accept no one’s definition, and define myself.” Which version of you are you going to choose to show the world today? Cause I choose me.