Ever think that time is passing at the most unexplainable rate but in the same moment, still yearn for a time for when something will be completely different? I am fully aware that time speeds up exponentially as you get older and that you need to practice being as present as possible, but I can’t seem to shake the fact that I want it to be closer to another year from now more than ever. The funny thing is, I know how much can happen in just one hour let alone a whole year, so I continue to get upset with myself for wanting 21,900 hours to pass so quickly. How do we then stay present while we struggle with the present? I have currently been given the challenge of knowing that my present situation will not be getting any better for some time to come. I thought I knew what I was signing up from the countless conversations, but the truth is, you never know how hard it is going to be until you are fully submersed in the situation. And to be completely honest, the “water” is up to my ears right now and I am looking for the strength and the perseverance to keep it from washing over my head entirely. As I painted “EMIT” 36×24, I was grateful for the time in which the act of painting itself made me momentarily forget my current state of affairs, but also the importance of how we need to stay true to our initial promise. I promised to stay supportive. I promised to be understanding. I promised to “ride the waves” both exciting and frustrating. It is essential to remember that “this too shall pass” and you will come out on the other side stronger, more solid and grateful for the journey in which you have just taken. Too often do we let our frustrations get the best of us and in turn begin to let resentment creep in. Too often do we start letting our ego take over and forget to realize that it is just as hard on the other person as it is you. Too often do we not just take a deep breath and remember that a united front full of love, support and patience will get you to that 21,900 hours from now with a connection that will reinforce your already well established foundation. Don’t be in such a hurry, for the time in which we take to savour the moment will be the times that we will remember for a lifetime.
